October 11, 2018

Let A Child Into Your Life

I never would have signed up for this. Not that I’m against it, it’s just so far out of my range of experience. At the end of August, my neighbor called: “Edie, is there any chance you would be willing to host a foreign exchange student? There are six students hoping to come to America; they need a placement in the next five hours.” Given five months, I would’ve had a laundry list, alphabetical, of all my reasons to decline. I told her I would think about it. This was my way of having a bit more time to compose a graceful “no.” When I hung up the phone, I really had to ask myself: what are my reasons? My former husband and I didn’t have children. We were busy with our professional lives. As the years went by, it simply ceased to be a topic of our conversation. When our twenty-year marriage ended, we were both silently grateful we’d never become parents.
October 11, 2018

Fresh Air

Fresh air. That’s what it comes down to. My mother dwells on the threshold between life and death. I enter her room she lifts her bone-thin arm and tired finger. She points to the window, “Let’s have some fresh air, shall we?” At another time she’d say, “Let’s have a cup of tea go out for ice cream or go for a swim.” Now: “Let’s have some fresh air.”